As part of the job elimination process … I have access to a company that provides career transition services.

Yesterday, I meet with my coach for our first one-on-one session.

I must say that I it did not go well.

It was not my support coach.

It was me.

I went into the meeting unclear … unfocused.

I began by giving a high level … a vague picture really … of what my future plans were.

He asked me who my target market was … I couldn’t answer.

He asked me how I was going to market to them … I made up some feeble response.

It was not a good start.

I quickly began to spiral down into a wallowing pool of anxiety and self-doubt.

My expectation was that my coach would be able to help me piece together my plan … help me clarify my direction … provide suggestions for improvement.

Instead … It felt like I was selling my idea … making my pitch … having to show that I could make the entrepreneurial leap.

I expected support … I wanted reassurance that I was doing the right thing … instead I got judgment.

I was caught off guard … unprepared … and it really threw me off.

It’s as if my confidence in myself is dependent on how other people view me.

Well this is not going to work if I keep this up.

So … I’ve decided that I will never be thrown off again … meaning … I will maintain my confidence … even if I’m caught of guard.

This confidence will appear in my walk … in my appearance.

You will be able to see it when I’m standing or sitting.

This will be a confidence in my ability … confidence in my services … confidence in my belief that what I have to say has value … and will benefit others.

A confidence that … at its core … maintains the belief … that what I do matters … that what I bring … has value … and that people will pay me … yes actual dollars … for me to deliver … to give them the results that they are expecting … even exceeding those expectations … on a regular basis.

My confidence will come from within … not from without.

I will not waver … I believe … I know … that I am on the path … doing what I was meant to do.

I have taken that first step … I have taken it with confidence … a belief that will be fed from within.

My belief is that … without a doubt … I will succeed.

This entry was posted on Tuesday, March 28th, 2006 at 11:15 am and is filed under Intent, Anxiety.

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